My goal to gain a healthier body and mind.
Fantastic. Literally, the after I said I was going to write once a day, I fail and don’t write for 3 days. Here’s why -
I tried. On day two, I had an entire poem spelled out. My computer decided to crash and I forgot that I had the option to go back to the saved draft and submit it. I just gave up and brushed it to the side. It was hard to piece those words back together.
I suffer from…
Day one of my everyday observations, conversations, and life events!
Why do I have to be so anxious all the time, being an emotional, confused wreck which is keeping me from living a normal life? Why, just when things are starting to look up, does everything have to crumble, usually because of myself and things are out of my control? Why do I have to be so unhealthy, and no matter how much I try to feel better, I lose the strength and am in constant pain all the time? I am my own worst enemy. I’ve been praying my entire life for blessings and a path that leads to less pain, but I’m sinking further into a black hole each day. Nothing seems to work. I slap a smile on my face so people won’t worry about me or ask because I usually just break down and sob. I have no idea what to do. I feel like I’m on a road to nowhere. People tell me to pray, as if I haven’t. I am in constant prayer. I don’t know the reason for my pain and what good it could do for my future. I feel like it’s holding me back from wonderful things in my life. I don’t have any direction in my life. I’m holding on by a thread. I really hope things start to look up soon and this pain will cease. I hope I will have hindsight and be able to understand this time in my life. All I can do is ask for prayers.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference. - Serenity Prayer
What’s holding you back from following your dreams and being all that you can be?
Not enough time?
Worry about what other people will say?
All I can say is stop. Stop making excuses that keep you from following your dreams. Live a life with as little regrets as you can. Do what you need to do to get to where you want to be. It will not always be easy, but it will be worth it.…
Another blog post brought to you by yours truly. This one is a bit different than my normal posts, but I love it all the same! I had to throw some of the silly side of me out there.
The capacity to be alone is the capacity to love. It may look paradoxical to you, but it is not. It is an existential truth: only those people who are capable of being alone are possessing the other, without becoming dependent on the other, without reducing the other to a thing, and without becoming addicted to the other. They allow the other absolute freedom, because they know that if the other leaves, they will be as happy as they are now. Their happiness cannot be taken by the other, because it is not given by the other.
Stop Waiting! Start Living!
Waiting… How much valuable, irreplaceable time is spent on waiting? Waiting for work to end. Waiting for the weekend to come.